Monday, July 6, 2009

Playing in WHOSE hair?



"Just call Atisha your beautician
I promise it will be just fine
In two or three or hours
You’ll be smilin’
She gon’ get that hair bone straight
And even though I got it all tangled
I know you like the love we make"



I know everyone was excited when this song came out. Women were saying yeah boo you can play in my hair as long as you pay to get it done again.
Not I.
It's not about the money. Dream said in 2-3 hours you'll be smiling. I'm not exactly sure who his muse was but one thing's for certain, I've never been in and out a hair salon in 3 hours. I have yet to experience that earth shattering deek that allows me to forget the 6 hours I just spent getting my hair done.
So no sir you can not sweat it out any ole day. Your limited to the 4 days before my next appointment.

Or if I get caught in the rain.


Oh yeah, Mr. Teruis Nash,
I know you write a lot for females so you may just get confused from time to time but men wear chains, women wear necklaces.


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Friday, July 3, 2009

"America reigns without a rival"



While you're stuffing your face, sitting under the stars and watching/taking part in celebrations that commemorate the day our forefathers declared their Independence (and Bill Pullman gave his moving speech to motivate the soldiers to defeat the aliens who wanted to annihilate Earth), Do NOT forget the words of Frederick Douglas



“What, to the American slave, is your Fourth of July? I answer: a day that reveals to him, more than all other days in the year, the gross injustice and cruelty to which he is the constant victim. To him, your celebration is a sham; your boasted liberty, an unholy license; your national greatness, swelling vanity; your sounds of rejoicing are empty and heartless; your denunciation of tyrants, brass-fronted impudence; your shouts of liberty and equality, hollow mockery; your prayers and hymns, your sermons and thanksgivings, with all your religious parade and solemnity, are, to Him, mere bombast, fraud, deception, impiety, and hypocrisy-a thin veil to cover up crimes which would disgrace a nation of savages. There is not a nation of savages. There is not a nation on the earth guilty of practices more shocking and bloody than are the people of the United States at this very hour.

Go where you may, search where you will, roam through all the monarchies and despotisms- of the Old World, travel through South America, search out every abuse, and when you have found the last, lay your facts by the side of the everyday practices of this nation, and you will say with me that, for revolting barbarity and shameless hypocrisy, America reigns without a rival.”


The rest of the Speech is here


Let Freedom Ring

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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

CFM


As she laid her outfit on the bed, she looked toward her shoe closet. "All those shoes, how the hell am I going to pick out the perfect ones for tonight?"
Then it hit her, she'd wear the black pumps with the steel heel. Simple, understated yet naughty she thought with a smirk as she sashayed toward the closet. Her shoulders glistened with each sway from the light reflecting off the beads of water still pooling from her shower earlier.


She stood on her tippy toes and reached for the shoe box. Her hand extended into the air, she pulled back, hit with a wave of nostalgia, she retreated to the chaise lounge chair in the middle of the room. She unfastened her silk kimono bathrobe exposing her oiled caramel skin and sat, legs folded under her, alone with her memories. She allowed her fingertips to graze her inner thighs as she remembered the last time she'd she chose those shoes.

She wore them to meet him. They went to the opera that night and as they walked home from the theatre, it began pouring. There was no rain in the forecast so neither was prepared for the sudden downpour of torrential rain. Her long athletic stride matched his, step for step, they were gracefully in unison as though they had practiced this dance before.
As they got closer to his building, he stopped, she turned back: "babe, did you forget something?" She asked as the rain continued to soak her shoulder length curls. He stood there, just watching her, the dress clinging to her breast, so skillfully draped across her hips. There is no better tailor than Mother Nature he thought as he eyed her lustfully. He walked towards her, taking her hand into his and wrapping his arm around her waist. Slow, quick, quick slow he thought to himself as he rehashed his newly acquired dance moves in his mind. She moved in closer to him. "My God I love this man" she whispered to herself and laid her head on his wet chest and matched his rhythm. "I could stand here with you forever" he said in her ear before he began showering her earlobe and neck with kisses. He ran his left hand down her back to her butt where he allowed his hand to rest and draped his other arm around her shoulders, leading her into the building lobby.

They stood together waiting on the elevator, 4, 3,2, L. he stepped into the elevator first, back against the wall, she followed, pressing 3 before she stood in front of him with her butt brushing on the crotch of his pants. She knew he liked when she teased him. He reached down and kissed her neck. One quick peck. Then a slow tongue kiss ending with him biting down on her neck sending pulses throughout her body. She squeezed her legs together to allow the moment to linger before the elevator door opened for them. She stepped off first knowing he had full view of her she strode confidently down the long corridor, stopping midway. She knew he was watching her so she swayed to the left. Her hands now tracing the form he was so entranced with earlier. She caressed her hips as she moved both hands to her right side, unzipping her zipper and began walking forward. With every footstep she took, she could hear his footsteps. She stopped, turned towards him and began walking backwards, slowly brushing her hands on her neck, cupping her bosom still prisoner to her dress, all the while locking eyes with him. Her skin was burning and she needed his touch to extinguish the flames.

She stopped at his door, still caressing her body. He seemed to sense her urgency and began to slow down. Teasing her with his eyes, licking his lips, exposing his intentions. He shoved his left hand in his pocket and pulled out his keys. Finally, he’s standing in front of her. His forearm brushes her stomach and she moans. He pulls back and repeats this motion. He’s teasing her and yet he’s teasing himself. As he reaches to put the key in the door, she grabs his hand and guides the key to its proper place, turning the key, unlocking the door and her passion. Click. She moves his hand to the hem of her dress about 3 inches above her knee. Following her lead, he pulls the dress up and massages her through her stocking and underwear. He can feel her vagina pulsating. He picks her up and walks through the door, dropping his keys on the floor and kicking his shoes off with each step.

Eight steps later he is standing to the right of the breakfast bar where he sits her. He pulls her dress off and throws it behind him. He squats down to her shoes, caresses the top part of her foot while holding the bottom of her shoe in his hand. Gently, he slides the shoe off and kisses the top of her soaked stockinged foot. He repeats this ritual for the other foot. With one hand on her ankle, he runs his hand up the inside of her leg pushing them further apart all the while relishing in her audible sounds of content. He reaches up to the top of her stocking, one hand bracing her back and pulls her stockings down. She squirms around to assist him. He stands up in front of her and she wraps her legs around his waist and fiddles with his belt buckle. He kisses her on the forehead, cheek and neck and reaches around to unclasp her bra. Her full D cups spring forward from their confined spaces.

She finally manages to concentrate on his belt long enough to unbuckle it. She uses her feet to push his pants down while using her hands to expose his muscular chest and those sprinkles of chest hairs she finds so irresistible.
She uses her legs to pull him closer to her and she can feel his manhood through his boxer briefs. “Oh Now that’s a Keeper” she whispers to him as she fondles his penis. She pulls his rock hard member out of his cage and begins stroking it, up and down slowly but firmly, concentrating her energy around the crown.

Never one to be outdone, he slides her thong aside and looks her in the eye. “That’s what you do to me” she said in response to the look of surprise at finding her sopping wet. He plunges his middle finger in her love box and lets out a moan. “You’re so soft and warm” he says as he now adds another finger to the action and grabbing her butt to keep her from moving away.

She stops him, pulls his hands from between her legs and begin to suck his fingers while looking into his eyes. She can tell he’s excited. “Take off your wedding ring” she commands, and he obliges after ripping her thong off. He pulls her closer to the edge of the bar and begins sucking her nipples and rubbing her clit. She throws her head back and moans loudly. He begins moving his kisses south, kissing her navel, her pelvis and finally her thighs and knees. He begins to ascend towards her vagina showing love to each part of her inner thigh as he moves. He pushes her legs open further and sucks on her clitoris. Immediately, her legs clench shut and he opens her legs again, then stands up and whispers in her ear “if you can’t keep them open, I’ll have to tie them that way”. Not even waiting on a response he lowers himself and begins to work his magic. He put his full lips on top of her and began to suck hard while tonguing her little boat.

As she tries to slid away, his hand is there to keep pushing her into the action. She is overcome with pleasure and allows herself to succumb to the feeling. Licking her lips, she opens her eyes to see his hand in the air with his index finger pointed signaling “1”.


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Friday, June 26, 2009

It's Mourning


I won't bore you with the "I was this years young when I was introduced to Michael Jackson. I won't go into how much of a fan I was or any of that. Instead I'm posting a poem that should I hope to have read at my funeral.




CHOICES
-Nikki Giovanni

If i can't do
what i want to do
then my job is to not
do what i don't want
to do

It's not the same thing
but it's the best i can
do


If i can't have
what i want . . . then
my job is to want
what i've got
and be satisfied
that at least there
is something more to want


Since i can't go
where i need
to go . . . then i must . . . go
where the signs point
through always understanding
parallel movement
isn't lateral


When i can't express
what i really feel
i practice feeling
what i can express
and none of it is equal


I know
but that's why mankind
alone among the animals
learns to cry



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Monday, June 22, 2009

Happy Father's Day



It was not my intention to skip over fathers day and for that I sincerely apologize. Happy Fathers Day to @crecks, @12kyle, @babydaddydiaries,
Happy "fothers" day to @MrSocialight



I sent a few text messages to some of the men in my life, thanking them for being there for me and my son, whether they were on the phone with me at 2 am in the morning helping me dry my tears when I was afriad I would be a bad mother or simply giving me thier input as to whether King should be wiping after he pees (YEAH he wipes!)

So after I sobered up from the night before and realized I had a phone, I began receiving text messages. The first one said how is your head (I got plenty of these) but the next ones I receieved were just a bit disturbing.

"Happy Father's Day"

I understand the significance behind the wishes but I think it's incredibly distasteful and well for the lack of a euphemism, stupid. While I understand that I am a single parent, I have a Vagina which biologically makes me a woman and since I enjoy interactions with males, I am female which makes me a MOTHER. My day was covered in May. To wish a single mother a Happy Father's day takes away from all those men who are handling their responisiblities. It seems like we aren't able to allow these days to past without dwlling on negativity.
I am Kingsmomma and while I have potty trained him, played and watched sports with him, wrestled him and done all the things you'd traditionally see a man doing with his son minus the pissing outside by a tree, I am still his mother and can never take the place or fill the role of a man as his father or father figure.
Secondly, that is something that I would not want my son to overhear. The absence of the father is already painful enough on that day and to be constantly reminded of that fact stings.

So again, Happy belated Father's day to you all. You desevere the recoginition and praise.
I hope you all had a wonderful day and continue to be the men your children need you to be.
I hope we can continue to keep this day postive by celebrating the good men in our lives instead of pointing out or referencing the bad seeds. They already know they're bad and don't need the reminder on Father's day, I suppose Father's Day further reminds them of their mistakes. Besides I know quite a few mothers who received gifts on mothers day when instead they should have gotten automatic ACS referrals. If only for one day, let's let our Men shine.

I leave you with Luther





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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Dear Kingston: IF I EVER..

Catch you out here doing some shit like this...






Just get the paddle because Momma's gonna knock you OUT!


Sincerely,

Mommy


P.S. I bought you in this world and I damn sho won't hesitate to take your narrow hiney out.






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Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The Conversation



She looked at me and said "I think I’ve done it again". I looked into her eyes and braced myself for yet another of her soliloquies.

"I found myself hanging on to his every word, waiting, wishing and hoping that he’d say something to confirm or allow these building feelings. It never came. In my head I’d see us walking hand in hand strolling along the beach, fast forwarding to his hand on my belly, stroking the life we created."

I frowned, glared at her and said “well what…” but as I was speaking I realized her mouth was still moving, I stopped permitting her to continue her monologue

"I know I know what you're going to say, what was he saying to have me so open, but he wasn't saying anything that would allude to anything further than tomorrow. We talked, we laughed and I imagined the things he confided in me about her were instead about me. I guess I fell victim to loneliness and an active imagination. My mind began playing tricks on me. Crazy isn't it?"

I paused, stared at her eyes intently, trying to find the slightest glimmer of laughter but it was absent. She was serious. As I glared at her, she stared back at me with equal intensity and just as I began to answer her she began speaking again.

"It's not like we don't have the chemistry, we've just never really broached that topic and at times I think we could and should but then his actual words awaken my rationality and the mushy hoping side cowers. This is nothing I say to myself but I end up thinking what if it isn't. What if it's more? The two sides begin to battle, the emotional side never wins, instead plays dead for the opportunity to fight another day."

I'm peering into her now, checking to ensure its safe to talk, checking again for any sign that this is merely a concoction of her off color humor. Perhaps she's just testing out new material as she's been known to do. Gazing in her eyes I can see the turmoil, she's serious. I don't know what to say to her. She is hopelessly devoted to someone who most likely doesn't even consider her existence longer than the time it takes to hit send. Pull back would be my advice to her if she would allow me the chance to speak. So I look back at her and before I can speak at word she opens her mouth to speak again. I can’t even fathom what she could say next. I want to scream GIRL stop doing this to yourself but we’ve been down this road before. She won’t listen, it’s as if her heart and mind have traded places. I want to hug her and tell her one day it’ll be your turn. I’m perusing the pages of my mind, trying to find words eloquent enough to her handle her state. I found nothing so I said nothing. Instead, I opened the mirror door and reached for my toothbrush.


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Reposted : After The Storm



Peace Of Mind - Lauryn Hill

We’ve all been there, well most of us anyway. You live and you love but somehow you outgrow each other and the love is over. The BREAK UP begins. Maybe it was mutual but if it wasn’t it leaves one of you wondering why. You’re obsessing over why it’s over. You’re not eating, you’re not sleeping and you’re crying non stop. I'm not here to judge or chastise you. You didn’t fall in love over night and I don’t expect you to stop loving that person immediately after they have slaughtered your heart and left it on the ground for the vultures but you must know life moves on, you will move on.

Relationships don’t end on a whim. Some may feel as though it came out of no where but it never really does. We tend to mask all the negativity and disguise it as anything but the truth when in actuality the person you love only looks that way because you love them. You get to a point when you begin accepting behaviors that you would normally shun because you want things to work. You begin to lose who you are because you feel like you are looking at the bigger picture and when this all crumbles at your feet you can’t help but to feel used and betrayed not to mention stupid.


In our minds, we grapple with the idea of being replaced. It is universal. No one wants to feel as though they were just filler, that your former spouse has not only accepted and interviewed applicants but has chosen the best person for that position. Now there is a toothbrush in your once empty slot and the toiletries on the sink don’t match your hue. We are still hung up on that person and it is as if we need their permission to move forward with our lives. We want to know that the puddles of tears collecting at the corner of our mouths are falling down the other person’s cheek. We want to know that while we are sleepless, thinking about the shoulda woulda couldas, they too are partaking in that same painful ritual. Maybe they are but why should we care? We are caught up with the do you miss me as much as I miss you’s and the how come we just can’t be’s that we don’t realize that we are FIERCE. No one wants to be given the pink slip, but it happens. We immediately begin to think about how we can’t go on and how unfair it is that we are in this situation but we don’t tend to look at the silver lining. It’s ME time.

It’s going to hurt and you’re going to cry so go ahead and let it out. Cleanse yourself of all the pent up rage and when the storm has passed the result is a new day. A new person to begin a new chapter in life. You’re grown wiser. You’ve met the person in the mirror and you are happy with that reflection. You aren’t seeking to be validated externally. You are you. This may sound corny but you know that you’ve got it going on, that you’re all that and a bag of chips. So why mope, why cry any longer than you must. Your mourning period is over and you realize that you haven’t lost. That person missed out on something great and they can search until the end of time and never find the likes of you anywhere, so let them try. You are magnificently you.

You’ve Lived, You loved and finally you learned. What more can you ask for?



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